Visitation

The Team

Manna & YC

Lay-ong & Neil
And the journey begins...

It gives me great joy serving the community. Chatted with some of the residents. I am encourage by their sincerity. Most of the families that we visited are malays, I love the fact that the family are together and they are happy.
Met a granny. She inspires me. She was full of joy despite of having very little. When I say little i really mean it... it is very little. Sometimes she has no dinner to eat. Me, often after a long day at work, I will tell my mom not to count me in for dinner because I have no appetite for food.
Love her joyful spirit. she inspires me...

Spotted some very adorable kids as well, they are really gifts from above.

WE made it happen in ONE ACCORD - 1a.m.

29 October 2009, was the last Vision Casting of the year.
I was really inspired by the videos as well as PC's sharing.

It reminds me of the whole reason that I am serving. It is not for recognition, neither is to be under the lime-light, but it is to advance the kingdom of God.

That was really refreshing and a good reminder. No wonder we need to come together as a church... we inspire each other, encourage each other... and keep on walking and serving for the advancement of the God's kingdom.

The Gospel must be preach. Thank you everyone for serving and "HELP BUILD THIS"

NA at SMK Sri Permata

Another workshop today. I thought SMK TMN Sea would be my last workshop today, but then God is good. He opens up another door for to do it again today! Yes, and I was lost... having difficulties in finding that school. Google map didn't help much. But thanks to Leong, he is awake that time, and with the help of Google map, he successfully directed me to SMK Sri Permata.

AnyHU... it was all good. I enjoyed it very much. Another chance to eat canteen food. This round I get to eat meehon goreng with sambal... yum..
this school has quite a wide range of canteen food... NOT BAD hehehe

the best part is at the end of the workshop... looking at students making their way to the front to pledge for abstinence.


Some of the feedback from the students:

• Abstinence is good to defend myself from doing the wrong thing that would ruin my life and bring regrets.
• I learned to believe in myself and not go over my boundaries, besides that, I also learned to appreciate myself.
• I have learned the importance of life and the need for change to fulfill the great purpose ahead.
• Don't ruin your life because you just want to 'have fun'. Abstinence really works.
• I have learned the greatest lesson in life...this program makes me realise and teach a lot of things.
• I have learned about sex and decided not to watch porn.
• Self control is very important and it can be done among young people.
• To love myself and others for who I am and who they are.

These group of students they are really active... very responsive.

If you are wondering what is NA... NA stand for NO APOLOGIES.

Tired... REALLY tired

Felt like a long day for me... I am TIRED.
Brain stop functioning well, eyes can barely open.

It affect my emotion, which is bad. I don't want to think anymore.
I need a break.

Attend service, and that was my break. I am glad that I was downstairs for the service. It is very refreshing.
Dr Ananda Stira spoke about HOPE.
"Every young person has hope in the Lord! Do not be discourage, do not be despair. Every challenges / struggle / suffering is to prepare you for greater position in future." Said Dr. Ananda.

Every mighty man and women in the bible when through a series of suffering. Jesus Himself too had sufferings.

So be happy, and have determination =)

Conversations

Fruitful conversations.
Inspired.
Encouraged.
Energized.

Talked to Manna before LG. We were talking about college, since we are from the same college =) Was telling her about the condition of the school during my time. And I am really glad that they have improved. She was asking me if I would want to further my studies eg doing MBA, I thought about that before, but then currently I really do not have the desire to study anymore. So as we talked, we talked about our journey and I shared with her about my dream, and guess what... she has a heart for the old folks. I was delighted when I hear that, I am gonna put her in my partner list. She will take care of the OLD FOLKS department, Jill - CHILDREN department.

Later at night, after LG... I needed to drop Sandeep.
Sandeep is amazing! He is a singer (he came to know us through trackoftalents.blogspot), a writer, a MBA student studying something something... (can't remember what is the name of the course that he's doing) a seminary speaker and currently in Malaysia doing research. He work with the Malaysian Rights.... etc... he gives me a lot of names but then I can't remember all of them. But just a short conversation with him, keeps my dream alive. And I put Sandeep's name under my partner list as well. I was thinking, since he has the connection, a management person perhaps he can take care of the management of the "HOME".

Sandeep, if you are reading this... note it down hehehehe

I am very encouraged by what he is doing. Keep up the good work, Sandeep.

No Apologies Workshop @ SMK Tmn Sea

Woke at up 530am, full of excitement. Get ready and head to SMK Taman Sea at 6:25am. Reach school at 650am and had breakfast at school canteen. Miss canteen food. And ta dang!!! Amanda walk towards me with her big bright smile and hugged me (our special hug)
I am amazed at myself that I am full of energy despite of me sleeping at 2am, but I "puncture" at 5pm. My eyes just can't take it anymore and I can feel my bed is calling out my name.

The students were great! They are very responsive, and sporting. Although the girls a lil shy but it's all good... they participated out of obligation - nah, just kidding. Though they are shy, they are whole bunch of sporting students.

During recess, wanted to makan with the students, but was catch talking to one of the teacher. (opss... can't remember her name. Sorry) and and and saw AhMan and AhJorleen on our way back to the class... and agian we do our normal stuff forgetting that a teacher is with us... feel so pai seh... OPS! then the teacher said yeah, I can see you belong to the same group as them with a smile. (not sure if it's a compliment hahahah)

I love Sekolah Menengah for some reasons. And I enjoy doing No Apologies workshop.
Feel that youth have so much potential, so much waiting for them to discover.

Just spending few hours with the students... sharing our hearts with them, our experience hoping that they won't go the path that we took, the wrong path... really fulfills me. Time like this just reminds me of how much I love them. It breaks my heart my I see them wasting their life away.
Hence feel NA is really a good workshop and all students should hear attend and hear us out with open heart.

We are suppose to have 200 students but only 33 turns up. But it's all good. At least... we share our (Chloe, Melissa and myself) life with them, and I hope we help them see the potential that's in them, and we impart something in their life. I decided to commit to NA out of love for the youth, the younger generation.

They too able to make a different in their generation =)

Some feedback from the students... and it really encourages and inspire me to continue doing what I am doing... (30 pledges out of 33!!!)

• We should love ourselves and not be influnced by external factors
• That life goes on no matter what, we should move forward and hence, there are no regrets/apologies.
• Learn how to protect myself and not be influenced by the temptation of pre marital sex.
• Learn not to do something that I will regret later on.
• The consequences of having pre marital sex.

Poverty

Visited poor family on Monday and it caused me to think about POVERTY.

pov⋅er⋅ty

–noun

1.	the state or condition of having little or no money, goods, or means of support; condition of being poor; indigence.

2.	deficiency of necessary or desirable ingredients, qualities, etc.: poverty of the soil.

3.	scantiness; insufficiency: Their efforts to stamp out disease were hampered by a poverty of medical supplies.

- Taken from www.dictionary.com-

Most of the time when we hear the word poverty we often relate it as POOR. NO MONEY.
But...
I think it is possible for us to be poor in these areas of our life.
1. POVERTY of Mind
2. POVERTY of Spirit
3. POVERTY of Soul

I am really thankful that I have Jesus in my life.

John 10:10 (New International Version)

¹⁰The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

FULL life is found in Jesus.

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View from my aunt's house in Kg Lapan. Getting ready to Grandpa's house. I am really excited to see him and my lil cousin. They have been SMS-ing almost every day asking me when I am going back.
and the journey begins... we go through Jasinentering Tangkak. It's getting more and more busy each year. And the town is famous for cloth and beef noodles!we stopped by a malay stall to get some kueh, and this is one of my fav. Not sure what isit call, but i think its called - Mee Siput. and you are suppose to eat with Sambal.This is my fav wan tan mee stall... but then the standard drop... the wan tan mee not nice at all!!! so disappointing. sigh... should have tapau laksa cuz is my grandpa's fav. Cousin will tapau for him next week. Since she is going back again.
Kids love to buy junk from this stall. And I was one of the kids that used to buy from this stall. I still do now whenever I am back.and they still selling this Keropok Jagung... I always bug my grandma to get me that when i was lil. Oh oh... before i forget... this my my grandpa's house and i was raise here till age 6 i think. this is the renovated version before its a wooden house. Most of the houses in my kampung has transformed from wooden house to bricks. and some from single storey to double storey. Family time at the dining table / kitchen. Ate so much!!! and the watermelon is awesome! for some reason, we just love to chit chat at this round table in the dinning hall/kitchen. Discussions, casual chats... all happened on this table... ops... no pic of the table. sorry =)this koko tree has been there like as long as i can remember. i even tried eating the fresh koko... and it's nice. hehehethis used to be our playground. my uncle will build small hut for us and we will play "masak-masak" (only once-in my memory) the rest we will cycle, play "guli", "lastic", climb trees... yeah stuff that city kids don't really get to play. hehehe
and and and... my kindy... that i attend for a month i think before i come to KL... and i am actually a kindergaten drop-out. hehehe i didn't complete it. I attend kindy in Bandar Sunway for a month, then don't know what happen i ended up in Pagoh for a year and finally settle down in KL till now.

Well spending time with family is always the best. I really love them a lot.
Try to go back once every 2 months. My grandpa is really old. I can see the joy in his eyes every time we go back. I guess every heart of parents (includes grandparents) it is their heart to have their children coming home.

Here again

Finally I am here. After much scribbling on my planner, i finally come back... after so long. Love this place.

It's very windy here. Love the breeze. It's so cooling and yeah kinda like away from the busy KL life. 

Will be a good time to reflect and think. It's almost end of the year. Whatever YangTze suggested me to do, i haven't started yet. Will take time to ponder and pen down some thoughts this weekend. 

Mistakes=2nd chance=GROWTH

Mee Mee send me this, and i thought it's good...

Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount.

Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.'

Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made.

This was what they did after certain time:

- 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage
- 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn
- 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali
- 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant
- 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted

.... and so on...

However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... no more love...Kind of typical nowadays, huh?

One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!'

Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'

Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind. Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce.

The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happiness you've brought me.'

They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone thru all the good years in their life.

"When you fall, don't see the place where you fell, instead see the place from where you slipped. Life is about correcting mistakes."

Going home...

a wedding at church. Ka Che said the couple is lovely. and i think the deco is just ok.
i was all excited about the wedding, and forgot to throw the rubbish at the sanctuary.

and I am going back to visit cousins and grandpa this weekend. I am very excited.
the last time i saw them was when my grandma died. since then i have tried to give every excuses that i can not to go back, because i still misses my grandma a lot. I still remember during her wake service, i "run" to Malacca and stayed there for 2 nights. When she breath her last breathe, I just can't accept the fact that she is gone. I was kinda lost... and only able to pick myself up 2 months after that...

well, the good news is i decided to rise up above my emotion and face it. my grandpa is still around, i better find every opportunity that i have to spend time with him. He must be lonely... not having my grandma around.

Excited to be home... my kampung... gonna eat all the food that i used to eat... and my favourite wan tan mee, minus the wan tan and the char siew. just love the mee... love the smell of it, the taste of it... but not the wan tan and char siew tho cuz can't tahan the smell and the strong pork taste.. ewww hehehe and i think i wanna visit the kindergaten that i attend for 2 weeks before i move to Pagoh... then from Pagoh, i was "transported" to KL... i can't remember me packing anything when i shift to KL. I think i only bring my smelly blanket, the "must have" blanket.

Super excited =D

Discovering God

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The Sculptor's Attitude

I woke up early today excited overl all i get to do before the clock strikes midnight.
I have responsibilities to fulfill today. I am important.
My job is to chose what kind of day I am going to have.

Today i can complain because the weather is rainy or...
I can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free.

Today I can feel sad that i don't have more money or...
I can be glad that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide me away from waste.

Today I can grumble about my health or...
I can rejoice that I am alive.

Today I can lament over all that my parents didn't give me when i I was growing up or...
I can feel grateful that they allowed me to be born.

Today I can cry because roses have thorns or...
I can celebrate that thorns have roses.

Today I can mourn my lack of friends or...
I can excitedly embark upon a quest to discover new relationship

Today I can whine because I have to go to work or...
I can shout for joy because I have a job to go to.

Today I can complain because I have to do housework or...
I can feel honored because the Lord has provided shelter for my mind, body and soul.

Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped.
And here I am, the sculptor who gets to do the shaping.
What today will be like is up to me.
I get to choose what kind of day I will have!!!

Have a GREAT DAY... unless you have other plans.

This poem was submitted by Father Thomas.

There's always low season in our lives. Don't stay at low season especially... for more than a day. CHOOSE right.

Things I found after weekend service

1. water bottles
2. bible
3. children books
4. jacket
5. planner
6. notebook
7. pacifier
8. baby bottles

and the list goes on...

Sometimes I am amazed and it kinda make me laugh with my "findings"

Conclusion... we (you and i) are forgetful. we have the fullest potential to forget things.

I am working on my forgetfulness... I try not to have, "I forgot" to come out from my mouth... really... I don't want to be labeled as "FORGETFUL"

My carpenter Dad.

My Dad, He was a carpenter. He loves what He is doing.

I still remember, He came to me and told me that He loves me. I was moved when He said that to me. It was genuine, sincere... and I know it is from His heart.

My Dad, though a carpenter... He hands are tender, His touch are gentle.
He is full of compassion.
He is just amazing. He always amazes me.

My Dad taught me how to love, by loving me first.
He said If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophcy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be? And if I Had the gift of faith so that I couldn't speak to a mountain and make it move, without love I would be no good to anybody. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would e of no value whatsoever.

There was once I asked my dad, "Dad, can i give up? and not to love?
Dad answered, "Have I stopped loving you?"
It is obvious, Dad's love for me was the same yesterday, today and forever.

Because He has not give up on me, and He first love me, therefore I will not stop loving others as well.

My Dad, is amazing.

Dad, I love you.

Ketchup =P

Spend some precious time with Jane on Saturday night... sadly time is just too short, we have not catch up with each other for four years... well, when gals get together, they have tonnes of story to tell, yup... that's what happen to both of us. Slept at 4am and got to wake up at 8am. But it was a good catch up. Yeah, on Monday... Trish and I went out for a date. We trim our eyebrow and shopping!!! but because of time, we ended browsing through the boutique and not buying anything. oh well... but we had fun trying on clothes kekeke its been a while since i last lepak. Guess sometime is fun to just lepak hahaha

and met up with Lisa at MidValley on Tuesday. It was fun, great to catch up with each other... and what i enjoyed most is that we are able to share our heart desires. It encourages me and also inspires me. Go Lisa!!! You can do it!

SMKTY Alumni Gathering

Had our 1st gathering today. I was late... my cousin and girlfriend left early by the time I arrived. When i arrived, only few of them was there, and I am the MOST senior among them!!! oh well, it's an honor that they recognized and remember me. hahahha i m just SS (syok sendiri).

I think it's a good meeting... at least get to see some ex-students. Not too sure about being the MOST senior one among the group... hahahah

I am really proud of SMK Taman Yarl, and I actually not a shame that I am from that school. I think SMKTY is COOL!!!

The Making... Of our TOT 2nd Anniversary - Promo Vid

The Gals... getting ready for the shooting.

The MEDIA crew of Creative Life.This is what we do after shooting... Cuz suggest that we be vain since we are already all dressed up. Love this pic...

Our Gala Night will be held on Nov 27, Friday @ 730pm.
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