Saturday, December 25, 2010

I've moved...

That's right.... I have moved to yeanchinglee.com.

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

Granny

Was at the dining table with my granny...
Initially I wanna just take my medicine and head straight up to my room, but my eyes just stop at granny, thinking to myself, my granny is really old. She was somewhat struggling to hold the spoon. I put my medicine aside, take the spoon from her and fed her.

I remember those days when she was still energetic, she has hundred and one thing to complain about me. I was so annoyed when she did that, but now I kinda miss hearing those complains. I miss hearing her voice. It's been awhile since I last see her laugh.

When I was little, for some weird reason... I used to think that my grandparent will stay with me forever. I know they are older then me, but in my mind I didn't know that they will passed away. I am very attached to my grandparents, especially my father's side.

I love my family.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Launch of my FIRST project




Yup, it's out! Plan on this project few months back. I am really glad that it's finally out. This will definitely gets better. Will improve in time. Never know to it's so difficult to get the right type of kraf paper.

My mind filled with ideas again, but got to shelf it for now. We will surely work on improving i_kl project. It's really fun to work with freeform.

A little promo here, if you like this.. you can place your order with me. It can be a good Christmas gift as well =)





Friday, November 26, 2010

not so cool

Not cool. I am stress to the MAX! Emotionally not doing well, hence... idea not coming out. I am not inspired, I am not motivated.

I want to run away. I want to hide. Not cool at all.

I felt so cramped up.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

It's been a month...

It's been a month now since the my climbing kaki, Dusan fell from the Himalayan Mountain. Been praying for his safety... report tells that the changes of finding him alive is almost ZERO! But God is God that's able. Still hoping for the best.

Wonder if the rescue team still searching for him?

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Without Vision People Perish

Now I understand this phrase - without vision, people perish. God indeed knows that we need vision. Vision is what keeps people do what they do. Even if we are doing what we love, without vision our love and passion for something will die too.

Vision + Passion = blossom.

Sunday, November 07, 2010

Letterpress

Visited ROYAL PRESS, Malacca today. It was fun! Something out of the box! These are one of the thing that I make my job fun.

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The Royal Press was form in the 1940s' by the Ee family. They were the one who printed the very first Mandarin Newspaper in Malaysia.

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Us, the inexperience ones, getting our hands dirty, trying to compose something. Mind you, this place have tonnes of mozzies! Next trip down, got to remember to bring insects repellent, my boss' main job is to "pak man" (direct translation from cantonese to english is beat mosquitoes =p)
Most of the workers that work there has been with the company for 50 years!

One of the old machine that I found during my tour at Royal Press. Not too sure if this is still functioning. But yeah, it really amaze me.

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Blocks of different sizes and fonts

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This is how they file the customer's blocks. Yeah, for repeats, got to go through each trays.

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This auntie has been working in with Royal Press for 50 years! She is the one in charge of composing. She knows exactly where things are. She is really cute too =)

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Blocks are tied using string! Everything are manually done.

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Not too sure what machine is this, but i assume is one of the letterpress machine?

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He used to work in Bukit Cina, and he has been working with royal press for 10 years! He is the one in charge of printing.

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We are going to do some test print using this machine. Best part about letterpress is that we can even print on namecard size paper! *Light bulb* moment =)

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Our work, not too bad eh? Love it!

In the effort of keeping the art of letterpress. Still brewing with the idea. This place, not just contains the art of letterpress, but also rich in culture. 
Btw, I steal some papers back too =p

Thursday, November 04, 2010

He is faithful

Looking back, I can only say that He is faithful.

Friday, October 29, 2010

5th month

My 5th month... Definitely not a smooth sailing. But I thank God for the grace and favor. It's a whole lots of experience I gain here.

Talk about being patient and calmness during tough time. My boss have that.... even when tsunami hits, he is still calm and help me process things through. Me on the other hand, really a panic queen. Need to learn to stay calm and solve the problem, just like the saying, no point crying over spilled milk.

So much to learn! Really stretching my character and also knowledge. Well this is what I asked for... wisdom. Here, you go... gaining wisdom from all the challenges and learning from wiser people.

Yes, conclusion... I am stress, but I am also keeping myself open, to learn and grow.

Friday, October 22, 2010

#remindertoself

I thank God for challenges, for it stretches me
I thank God for the discipline, for I know He loves me
I thank God that I am weak, for I know He is strong
I thank God for the unknown, for I know I can trust Him for my future
I thank God for the rough ride, for I know I can lean on Him
I thank God for my imperfection, for I know in Him I am made perfect
I thank God for "difficult people", for I know He teach me to love those whom I think it's unlovable.
I thank God for the rude wake up call, for I know He is walking through it with me
I thank God for friends, for I know He do not want me to be alone

Challenges are real, my feelings are real... but because of His grace, I am able to rise above all challenges. For when I am weak, HE is strong.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Rock Award!

It's ROCK Award night!!!! super happening, and our host Mr Cruz, just had fun making a fool of himself on the stage. oh my, and that's just Cuz =)

All the award winner, deserves it. They are indeed very outstanding.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Cluttured mind

Getting more and more busy with work. There are things I need to slowly let go. Keeping first thing first. FOCUS is the key.

It's just merely 4 months in the new company, and work is really getting hectic now. From nothing to do, to having not enough time and needing to get new hire. It's amazing. Really amazing! Can you imagine, me doing customer service? Still super nervous whenever I needed to see a client. I am force to make decisions. I have no choice but to stay calm when I am seeing client. In the business world, every mistake make cause money. But thank God for gracious boss. He sort of allow me to make mistakes. Love the fact that I am given the room to explore and experiment new things.

Still wondering what my future would be. I am entering late 20s and still feel that I have not achieve anything. Am I missing something here? Not too sure how long will I stay in this current company. Not too sure if I will even last till next year. I don't know. Future? I really can't see my future. I do feel as though I have no future. Wanting to stepped out, but how? HOW? HOW? HOW?

Is patient the KEY now?

Yeah I know, I am kind of not making sense. Me and my cluttered mind. Now, I need clarity.

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Standing at the door

I am standing at the door.
Just watching every moves. Wishing that I could be part of it. Unfortunately I am just at the door.

Tried entering, but somehow I just couldn't find my fit.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

voices

argh!!!!
What if all these while what I think is right was wrong? Every time when I think I have taken a steps forward, before I can see the results of my work, I have to take 2 steps back. There are too many voices out there, who to listen? family tells you this, friends tell you that... who to listen? who to follow?

I am desperate, I want a clear direction. Not trying to feel my way through.

If only I know the answer.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Vision of one man


A risky, costly, reckless endeavor

Sixty years after founder Bob Pierce’s bold, audacious idea, World Vision has become a global organization whose presence in nearly 100 countries has helped change the lives of millions of children across multiple generations.

September 2010



Bob Pierce, founder of World Vision, prays for his heart to be broken with the things that break the heart of God.
Bob Pierce’s most famous prayer, “Let my heart be broken with the things that break the heart of God,” has formed the basis for World Vision’s work alongside the poor and oppressed around the globe.

I sometimes wish that Bob Pierce had chosen a name other than World Vision when he founded our organization 60 years ago, in September 1950. If he had chosen a name beginning with an A, we would always be the first charity listed by the media after a natural disaster instead of the last.
But what a name — WORLD Vision. Ironically, Bob Pierce was denied his dream to be an Army chaplain in the 1940s because he had poor vision.
I have often mused over Bob Pierce’s sheer audacity. When he made his first trip to Asia in 1947, he barely had enough money to get to Hawaii, much less all the way to China. And he had to borrow an office from Youth for Christ in Portland, Ore., just to get the ministry started. So you have to love the recklessness of a guy who names his little charity “World Vision.” I think it made God smile.

A foundation that has shaped our identityFor 60 years, World Vision has lived by this risky, costly, and even reckless faith, believing that if we dared to follow Christ by going to the darkest and most dangerous places on earth, God would go before us and “be a lamp unto our feet” as we served the poorest of the poor in His name.


That unwavering conviction has led successive generations at World Vision into the pain of the world. Our courageous staff has faced earthquakes, famines, riots, cyclones, military coups, floods, pandemic diseases, and wars. They have lived among the broken, walked among the homeless, and given comfort to the widow, the orphan, the least, and the lost.

And they have done these things knowing the risk and paying the price but believing that God had called them for the great privilege of serving. Rarely does a year go by that doesn’t cost one or two of our staff their lives — seven have died this year alone.

Watch this slideshow of images from the six decades of World Visions history. Article continues below.

Because of one man’s vision

That audacious faith of Bob Pierce has always characterized World Vision, and I dare to say it has changed the world for millions of children over the past six decades. That tiny seed planted in Asia in 1950 by one man has now grown into an organization of more than 40,000 men and women on six continents in 97 countries.

More than 3 million children are now assisted by sponsors worldwide, and 100 million people receive help of one kind or another — all because one man had the audacity to believe God and because millions more just like you were willing to join him.

World Vision...I think it still makes God smile.

article taken from http://www.worldvision.org


Thursday, September 16, 2010

sweet memories



Memories... been a great time serving together. You guys rock!

Saturday, September 11, 2010

childhood dream

1. Police woman. Why?? I wanted to protect the nation. Believe it or not? I seriously dream of fighting crime and help people.

2. Performer. Love performing arts. Mom and aunt love my singing, that makes me feel I am a good singer but later found out I actually can't sing hahaha

3. Teacher. Thought teacher is a very cool profession, able to speak in front of many people. As I grow older I realized teacher need to set exam papers =_=" and i don't really do well academically. Am just an average students. Super active, but when come to books, I am a little hopeless.

4. Lawyer. Again this has to do with justice.  But mom says lawyer is not a good profession. Thank God I didn't pursue it. Need to read a lot...

5. Paramedics. To preserve life. At least try to reduce suffering. Started with being a first aider. Love being first aider actually...

All those just childhood dream. What I am doing now it has nothing to do with all the above. But considering I am a klutz, knowing some first aid knowledge helps me a lot hehehe

Childhood dream... =)

Outdoor climbing

Nah, I didn't climb... I decided to be good to my knee. Stayed home whole day yesterday... but my heart was at Damai wall.

Some interesting incident happen at Damai, and from what I heard from David, I guess things happen for a reason, and in this case... I would categorized it as MIRACLE.

Eric cousin or nephew.. can't remember came to know the Lord few days ago, and he joined them for climbing on the first day of Hari Raya, and he fell, the harness 'broke' (and he was wearing my harness) it broke because he tied wrongly, yupe safety first... always double check. In climbing we need to check on our partner. Okay back to the main point  He fell about 1meter, to cut the whole story short, he was send to the hospital for check up, but the report shows that he was alright.... no sign of fractured. By right falling off, and with that impact our bones will at lest cracked, but I believe God showed 1st miracle in his life. He only suffered from minor injury. My last accident in Damai wall left me "crippled" for a month.

I should have gone... not to climb, but just be there. Then I can use my first aid skill. Ever since I graduate from high school, I only use my first aid skill on myself. Sigh.... just kidding. I really thank God for his protection, and I thank God that another soul was added in his kingdom. Perhaps someday climbing LG can be form hahaha 

Once my knee recover, I will visit camp5 again.

Friday, September 10, 2010

No body shadow

I don't want to live under anybody's shadow. I admire those who dare to step up and live up their dream and what they believes in. I want to live up my dream. Again, what's my dream? Do I have any?

Monday, September 06, 2010

Thursday, September 02, 2010

Terrorist in church

Something sweet to read...

Got this from a friend...
_______________________________________________

Beware of Terrorist Groups in Church

Latest news reports are that five terrorist cell groups have been operating
in many of our churches. They have been identified as: Bin Sleepin, Bin
Arguin, Bin Fightin, Bin Complainin, and Bin Missin.

Their leader, Lucifer Bin Workin, trained these groups to destroy the Body
of Christ.  The plan is to come into the church disguised as Christians and
to work within the church to discourage, disrupt, and destroy.

However, there have been reports of a sixth group. A tiny cell known by the
name Bin Prayin is actually the only effective counter terrorism force in
the church.  Unlike other terrorist cells, the Bin Prayin team does not
blend in with whoever and whatever comes along.

Bin Prayin does whatever is needed to uplift and encourage the Body of
Christ.  We have noticed that the Bin Prayin cell group has different
characteristics than the others. They have Bin Watchin, Bin Waitin, Bin
Fastin, and Bin Longin for their Master, Jesus Christ to return.

NO CHURCH IS EXEMPT!

(However, you can spot them if you bin lookin and bin goin.)

Damai @ 31 Aug 2010

It was a good climb, although I only did 1 route... on top rope. As much as I wanted to lead I was watching my knee and being very careful. After CYW I can go all out and try a few fall =p

Eu Gene was super cute! He wanted to be part of the photography team as well. Eu Gene is only 2 years old, and yes he is an adventurous boy. Leong took care of him most of the time =) and Leong also gets to practice his mandarin.

It was David, Julie and Balan 1st time climbing outdoor... so proud of them, for 1st timer, i think they did well.
Why do I love climbing?

1. It kept me focus... sometime fear creeps in, but because i wanted to finish the "race" I kept climbing and eventually overcome the fear. Sometimes I do finish a route with great fear... but I did it =)

2. Having people around. There are times where I just wanted to give up. Telling myself, it's too difficult for me. I won't be able to do it. But other climbers will not let me give up. They will keep asking me to try. More experience climber show / teach me how to do it... and later on, I look at the same route again, try to study and remember how the other person do it.... and started climbing again. There routes that I climb numerous time before I am able to conquer it. Climbing taught me not to give up.

Yes, perseverance it's difficult... to fail... not just once but many time is discouraging, but someone once said, "failure is a steps closer to your dream."

Just like climbing, there are many ways to climb. You can learn from other experience climber, but most time I realised... their ways may not be suitable for me. I tried to imitate them, but at the end of the day, I still have to find my way...

Okay, have to stop talking about climbing... I have been banned from climbing till I recover from my knee injury.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Connectedness

Ps Jonathan, he pastor Eaglepoint Penang. He's here for pastoral photoshoot and of course holiday. Since he is in town, how can we not hear from him? In line with our theme - CONNECT, Ps Jon also shared on being connected.

The way he sees Mark 2, really enlighten me - the 4 friends with a paralytic guy.
Why do we want to be connected? What's the benefits of being connected?
Ah... you have answer for it? this is what Ps Jon shared... 4 benefit of being connected:
1. Give us a sense of purpose
2. Will get greater creativity
3. Feeling of security
4. Give us a need to be needed

Connectedness enable us to accomplish things that we cannot accomplish alone.

See... 2 are always better than 1.

Are you connected?

Friday, August 27, 2010

God & Business



Christian faith plus Chinese productivity


Employees of the Boteli Valve Group in Wenzhou The employees work under the customary symbols of the atheist Communist state
At first glance, it looks as though it could be any other factory driving the rapid development of the Chinese economy. 

But this is no ordinary enterprise because here religious faith is as important as profit.
In fact, the owner of the Boteli Valve Group in Wenzhou would like to see all his staff convert to Christianity.

And such a factory is not a one-off: it is part of a growing number of businesses run by Christian entrepreneurs in one of China's key enterprise zones, whose success is now being studied by the Chinese government.

As he shows me the production facilities, the factory's general manager, Weng-Jen Wau, tells me that every month, $5m (£3m) worth of industrial valves are manufactured.
About 40% of the factory's output is exported to businesses worldwide.
But he seems to have limited interest in the sales figures - he is far more concerned to tell me about the place his family's Christian faith has in the life of the factory.
'Better workers' Every Monday morning, the senior managers gather together and pray about the business.

Weng-Jen Wau, factory manager
When [Christian workers] do things wrong, they feel guilty - that's the difference”
End Quote Weng-Jen Wau factory manager
Once a week, members of staff are encouraged to attend an on-site Christian fellowship meeting, where they read the Bible and pray for each other.
Weng-Jen Wau believes that by encouraging increasing numbers of his staff to convert to Christianity, his business will prosper.

And he tells me that when staff do convert to Christianity, their attitude towards their work is transformed.
"If you're a Christian you're more honest, with a better heart," he says. "The people who aren't Christians aren't responsible. I think it's very different.

"I'm not saying those people who aren't Christians are all bad, but from the percentage of the workers who are Christians, they seem to be more responsible.

"Also when they do things wrong, they feel guilty - that's the difference," he explains.
One of the workers I met who had recently converted to Christianity explained that he had known nothing about the religion before he started work at the factory.

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But he said that his new-found faith was now a source of daily inspiration.
He told me that he was now trying to convert his friends and colleagues to Christianity.
"If everybody became a Christian, it would have a very big impact, and would really help the development of our factory," he said.

Work ethic So I asked Mr Wau how much religion was a factor when he was recruiting new staff.
"Of course I would choose the Christians first, definitely," he said.

Professor Zhuo Xinping
It's very important to find the secret of social development, the so-called potential forces for a nation”
End Quote Professor Zhuo Xinping Director of the Chinese Institute of World Religions
Such comments could prompt accusations of discriminatory practice in some countries, but he had no doubt about the sort of impact Christianity could have on Chinese business.
"I think if all enterprises absorb this Christian culture, we will have a much more harmonious society," he said.

There are obvious questions about whether the staff really have discovered Christianity, or whether they are simply responding pragmatically to a clearly defined vision for their company.
Those I met were keen to stress the significance of their new faith, and the lack of pressure to convert - though there was no disguising their bosses' clear desire to boost Christian numbers in the workforce.
But the wider role of Christian entrepreneurs in the economic success of the Wenzhou private enterprise zone has not gone unnoticed by the Chinese government.

Far from being regarded as a religious oddity, the impact of Christian-run businesses is now being studied by Chinese government officials.
At the Chinese Academy of Social Sciences in Beijing, I met Professor Zhuo Xinping, Director of the Institute of World Religions.

He specialises in the study of Christianity's growing influence in China - and has plenty to say about Wenzhou's Christian entrepreneurs.

He tells me that the city was visited by substantial numbers of Western Christian missionaries during the 19th Century and thus has - by Chinese standards - a long history of Christian faith.

Today it has an unusually high number of Christians for a Chinese city - with some estimates suggesting Christians now make up 20% of the population.

But what really interests him is the way in which the growth of Christianity and economic prosperity have happened side by side.

The Boteli Valve Group in Wenzhou, China The factory has a monthly output worth $5m
He tells me that Chinese researchers are considering whether in Western history there is a link between economic prosperity and Protestant Christianity - and they are questioning what that might mean for today's China.

"It's very important to find the secret of social development, the so-called potential forces for a nation," he says.

"When it comes to Western countries, the majority Chinese understanding is that this potential force is Protestant Christianity."

Christian faith may sound like an unlikely component in China's future economic success.
But the notion that newfound faith can inspire a workforce to increased levels of productivity is being taken seriously not only by Christian businessmen, but by China's Communist - and officially atheist - leaders.

Dance team

I seriously miss dancing in a team.. Not just dancing together.
Really miss Vitz, Ina, Jay, Rachel Kang, Trish, Jas...

Dancing as a team, it's so much fun and it's really fulfilling.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Perhaps...

Perhaps it's better to drop everything and leave. Don't serve, don't relate. That will save a lot of heartache.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

1040 Movie



Watched 1040 last nite. It was very inspiring. Different inviduals standing up for a greater cause, and advancing the kingdom of God with boldness and wisdom.

The power of God and the work of the Holy Spirit was so evident in the lives of people. Many young people rised up to heed the call. Our calling is to fullfill God's purpose in our generation.

God wants to use us to fulfill his purpose, but are we willing to be his vessel?

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Had a conversation with MsLee earlier. I notice that she was a little down. Wonder why...
She told me that she was really sad because she felt she is not growing... not improving in her skills.

She felt stupid at time.

I told her... well, perhaps you really need to get back to class. Work something out.

Friday, August 13, 2010

weird Friday

I am glad that Expo Digital website is finally up. Time to work on Phase #2. Yes, that's my baby. Will have to take good care of it. Much attention is needed.

Things didn't go very well, today... but I thank God for gracious clients. Both jobs kinda have a slight road block... 1. poster didn't fit into the frame, which we have to re-do and the client was gracious enough to give us the time to re-produce again. 2. Driver just went back home after failing to find the loading bay at Mid Valley, talk about responsibility.

Kinda feel stupid after I propose something to client. Just hope that all will turn out good.

Reminder to self:
1. Be humble
2. Have a servant heart.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Thursday, August 05, 2010

cute



This make me laugh =)

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

I am in love

Yes, I am in love with KK! The land it's really beautiful! Not as busy as KL obviously. I LOVE the beaches! Love the mountain! Words can't describe the beauty of the land. hahaha OK, the company also makes it a superb trip!

Trish, Aaron, Chrystin and myself... we conquered the mountain! Trish said it's not challenging at all. She really love hiking. Me, I love the breeze and the view!

Those are Aaron's god. He has 4 dogs! Gosh... that's a lot of dogs I think. Yup, all 7 of us stayed in Aaron's house. Personally I think Aaron's  parents are very cool.

Sabah... got a lot of noodles. They have yummy noodles. But I still prefer mom's homecook food. Best meal was on the night where Aaron's mom cook for us. 

1st sea that we visited... Sutera Harbour. Love it. I was walking around alone while the couples and Trisha busy taking pictures. This is the place that captured my heart. hehehhe 


Aaron and Max, the actors for our short clip. 

Visited skyline. Nope... nobody there, we just walked in. hehehe 
and i spotted these...

and this...

Esther made this board. Am very proud of her =)

I took 6 hours to reach Laban Rata. Wanna try carrying my own bag instead of hiring a portal.  Pretty tiring, and hard to breath, but it was good... err if i m not mistaken, this is like 1km away from Laban Rata. Was enjoying my climb.


View from Laban Rata. Dinner was at 5pm... we got to sleep after dinner because next climb was at 230am. Can't climb later then that cuz then it will misty and won't be able to climb to the peak, and yes, we all made it to the peak.  It was a good experience. 

Things i learn from the climb:
1) Never quit
2) it's okay to be slow, but certain of your steps
3) there's no need to compete with others, just enjoy the journey... enjoy the climb
4) God created the mountain, he also able to move the mountain

I almost didn't make it to the top. wanted to give up.. I think I was only 1km away from the peak. It was so dark... No one in front of me... and when i look back, no one was behind me either. The fear creeps in and my mind kept telling me, I should just stop, but thank god... as I slowly hike I saw human figure, at first it was ok, I was just following behind them, but as they hike... the go further and further away from me... therefore I gather all my strength, go up to that person and asked if we could hike together. Thank God, he didn't leave me... else I will be in fear again. yes, indeed two are better than one. The climb seems much much easy than me hiking up alone. I was at peace... I felt very very secured. I think it's my first time feeling such security. 

It was a good trip. Found peace and was being refreshed. Love them all... I think we bonded during this trip, and yes... I am in love with KK =) Kuching, no more in my list heheheh

Saturday, July 31, 2010

choices

Found this at my ka che's desk. She used to remind me all the time that "LIFE IS A SUM OF ALL YOUR CHOICES."
I have a choice to make a different each day.

I was just about to quit. Was very tempted to utter the word - "I QUIT".
Thank God i didn't. I decided to persevere, not easy... but I think I made the right decision.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

still waiting

Waiting period... it's hard. Wanted to know or rather see that fruit of our hard work soonest possible, but unfortunately, won't be able to see the fruit for now.

I do wonder, if what I am doing it's fruitful. I see the vision... but how to get there. Is my effort, what I am sowing right now will bear fruit?

Friday, July 09, 2010

WAIT

I definitely need to learn to wait upon the Lord.

Isaiah 40:31 (New Living Translation)

 31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
      They will soar high on wings like eagles.
   They will run and not grow weary.
      They will walk and not faint.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

Park Yong Ha's Suicide

I was sadden by the news. Nope, I am not one of his fan… I was sad because another talented young man decided to take his own life.
There are many things that none of us can explain why he choose to end his life. The media can try to piece things together and come out with an conclusion of why he commit suicide. He was a talented actor, respected by many… probably loved by many. Suicide may not seems like an option to him… but he actually did commit suicide.



What drove Park Yong Ha’s suicide? (taken from allkpop.com)

Although several hours have passed since Park Yong Ha’s death, questions still remained unsolved: what drove Park Yong Ha to commit suicide?
Many acquaintances of the actor have all claimed that they do not know the reason of Park Yong Ha’s death, as he’s been acting like normal for the past few days. But it isn’t what it seems beneath the surface.
After further investigations, it’s been revealed that Park Yong Ha has had difficult times because of his ill father. His father has been suffering stomach cancer for a long period of time, and was told recently that it was in a terminal stage. A friend of Park Yong Ha claims, “After learning that his father had cancer, Yong Ha brought his father home and cared for him. He always worried about his father. He also said that he will be focusing on caring for his father for a while.”
Park Yong Ha’s failure in business also seems to be another reason for his suicide. Right before appearing on On Air (drama), he became independent from his ex-agency, and established his own company, with his father as the company’s president. According to a family acquaintance, running the business was not an easy task for them. A manager in the company made a financial mistake after getting various loans, causing the agency a huge loss. To make matters worse, Park Yong Ha’s father was left with a huge debt after mistakenly co-signing someone else’s loan. To contribute to the financial difficulty of the family, Park Yong Ha had even recently consulted a used car dealer to sell his car.
Park Yong Ha was also revealed to have been suffering from insomnia for 14 years, because of depression. He confessed on his Twitter a while back that he had been relying on sleeping pills for a long time, making his fans worry about his health. The actor also shared on a program that his rising fame as a Hallyu star caused him to undergo depression from a sense of shame.
Spokepersons from the hospital and police station have confirmed that no suicide note was left behind. The police have registered it as being an unnatural death and that a variety of reasons (listed above) probably led Park Yong Ha to choose suicide. Upon his family request, no autopsy will be performed and a traditional Buddhist funeral will be held for Park Yong Ha on July 2nd at 8am.

What I learn from this??
1. Talk to someone when you are down, or feeling trapped.
2. Suicide not an option. It really hurt those who love you, by you dying… may make their life miserable.
3. In times of difficulties, there will be light at the end of tunnel… there’s hope in Jesus, allow people to walk with you.

Friday, July 02, 2010

1 month

I have officially served Expo Digital for a month now.
It's a pretty interesting one month, trying to learn as much as I can. Not having Pr Steven or Sharon around to correct me or "counsel" me, is something that I am not use to it. Was feeling a little "homesick". Miss the people back in Eaglepoint office.

I have learned:
- not to look back, and look forward... (Sharon kept reminding me to look fwd... thanks Jie)
- people come in different package, just accept them as who they are also makes my life easier... kekeke
- there are many ways in doing things. got to change when necessary, don't wanna change? we sure going to lose out.
- sometimes it's also useful to use simpler and smaller machines =p
- most of the file that send to us, we need to check... and to control the quality, it's good to print out a sample copy, check through before printing the actual copies.
- PDF is ideal format for printers. (at least that's what I was told)
- Vision and purpose will drives someone. It's important to have vision and purpose. 

I realized... 
- it really annoys me when I need to go in circles just to get a parking. At times I will be super frustrated, and just double park... although is something i hate to do, but during those time... double park seems like a good option.
- Jam starts as early as 7am during school time. Best to leave the house? 9am. Unfortunately I start work at 9am. So it's better to just leave home around 8am.
- Driving in KL is a pain! one wrong turn, you are screwed!
- I am ok with dog, but not having them in the office =_=" the pee and poo, doesn't make the office smells better.
- I have a brain! I can actually think. hehehe
- I am pretty good at laughing at myself... actually I am pretty blur and silly. I need to be smarter... 

I almost forgotten how much I love being with students. Facilitating in NA workshop in Taman Sea was the best. Although I don't think I shared well... not too sure if the msg got across to the students, but then... it was the best thing that happened so far.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Be still

Each day... have so many things shouting out... wanting to get my attention.
Never ending to do list. SMSes... emails... telling you to do this, do that... this not done well, that not done well... if you really want it, you sure have time or ways to do it.

Not that I don't want to do... I am just too caught up.

I need to be still, and know that He is in control. Be still and know that He is God

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Thursday, June 10, 2010

22 Fictional Characters Whose Names You Don’t Know

Found this at yahoo! news... thought this is interesting.


22 Fictional Characters Whose Names You Don’t Know by Jason English - June 8, 2010 - 1:33 PM

You know the characters, but you might not know their full names. Store these away for future trivia nights.


1. Did you know the Comic Book Guy on The Simpsons has a name? It’s Jeff Albertson. But that wasn’t the decision of creator Matt Groening. “I was out of the room when [the writers] named him,” he told MTV in 2007. “In my mind, ‘Louis Lane’ was his name, and he was obsessed and tormented by Lois Lane.”

2. Barbie’s full name is Barbara Millicent Roberts. (Ken’s last name is Carson.)

3. Cap’n Crunch’s full name is Captain Horatio Magellan Crunch

4. Snuffleupagus has a first name—Aloysius.

5. In the Peanuts comic strip, Peppermint Patty’s real name is Patricia Reichardt.

6. The Wizard of Oz rolls off the tongue a lot easier than his full name, Oscar Zoroaster Phadrig Isaac Norman Henkel Emmannuel Ambroise Diggs. From Frank Baum’s Dorothy And the Wizard in Oz: “It was a dreadfully long name to weigh down a poor innocent child, and one of the hardest lessons I ever learned was to remember my own name. When I grew up I just called myself O.Z., because the other initials were P-I-N-H-E-A-D; and that spelled ‘pinhead,’ which was a reflection on my intelligence.”

7. Mr. Clean has a seldom-used first name—”Veritably.” The name came from a “Give Mr. Clean a First Name” promotion in 1962.

8. In a deleted scene in the 2006 Curious George movie, The Man With the Yellow Hat’s name was revealed as Ted Shackleford. (Since the scene was deleted, perhaps this doesn’t count.)

9. The real name of Monopoly mascot Rich Uncle Pennybags is Milburn Pennybags.

10. The policeman in Monopoly has a name, too. You can thank Officer Edgar Mallory the next time he sends you to jail.

11. On Night Court, Nostradamus Shannon was better known as Bull.

12. On Entourage, Turtle’s real name is Salvatore Assante.

13. Sesame Street’s resident game show host Guy Smiley was using a pseudonym all these years. He was born Bernie Liederkrantz.

14. The Michelin Man’s name is Bibendum.

15. On Gilligan’s Island, Jonas Grumby was simply called The Skipper.

16. Staying on Gilligan’s Island, The Professor was Roy Hinkley.

17. The unkempt Shaggy of Scooby-Doo fame has a rather proper real name—Norville Rogers.

18. The Pillsbury Doughboy’s name is Poppin’ Fresh. He has a wife, Poppie Fresh, and two kids, Popper and Bun Bun.

19. The patient in the classic game Operation is Cavity Sam.

20. The true identity of The Lone Ranger was John Reid.

21 & 22. OK, these last two aren’t fictional, but just in case it comes up, Bono was born Paul David Hewson, and The Edge’s name is David Howell Evans.

Sunday, June 06, 2010

New Job ^^



Started new job ^^
It was an interesting 1st week. Was expose to the production line.... a sneak peak of how the company function. It was very interesting.

We are making the calendar stand thing... I did a few though and ruin a piece... ops =p but my colleague was gracious to me. He just said "ah, careful... if the paper stuck in the glue machine... it's going to be nasty."

The sifu of the production stepped back because he shy... this colleague of mine just stand there posing for me to take picture only.

Most of the people that works there, have been with the company for more then 10 years. Except for those young breed like me... I am a week old only.

Here's the plate machine. Nowadays plate kinda replace film. Got different sized of plate... and brands... and we have to store those old film or plate in case our clients want to reprint. Interesting... very very interesting.

hahahah found this at our offset printing office. It's soooooooooooooo cute! It's actually very small, and it's not normal red color kind... I am amused by this... before being expose to those huge machinery.

Friday, June 04, 2010

another day =)

Visited the production site yesterday. I was amazed! When I saw the gigantic machine, the thing that come to my mind was OPTIMUS PRIME hahaha

Intrigue by the printing process... hopefully someday I can go down someday to do some hands on. I think it will be interesting. Something interesting for me to learn as well. By watching is good, but best if can do some hands on. standing in the production line together with other workers to do it with them. Well that if, I am allow to do that =)

Digital print and offset printing, is totally different. The offset factory, is nothing like what i seen before in Salak south. The machines are much much bigger!

Ended my day with some climb at camp5. Was super lazy... but Wan, kept pushing me to climb more and climb higher, even if I wanted to give up, he refuse to let me down... I really have no choice but to finish the route that I have started.

Yesterday was interesting for me. A lot questions asked. Hope they are gracious with me and not tired of my endless questions.

Look forward to weekend. Burger night gonna be fun!

Thursday, June 03, 2010

3rd day. morning

Left home super early, so that can skipped the jam and get good parking.
Reached office at 745am. walk around at the corridor till someone comes, and bump into Vincent Goh! He works around here as well, just few doors away. Thank God, I met someone that I know.

God has been faithful and he is good. Past few 2 days was easy for me. Look forward to the days to come.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

First day

First day at work... was quite an experience for me. Never in my life, I sweat so much! other then when I am exercising or dancing.

Am not used to working environment yet, but getting to know new colleagues are kinda fun. They are around my age, so it's pretty cool.
Don't have much to do today... Kept bugging my boss, but because I don't have the experience... I just watch and errr basically don't have much to do. It's been eye opening experience. Seeing how machine works kinda fascinate me. hahaha

Going home was a pain! Jam all the way. Gosh... well new experience. Don't think I wanna leave office early in future. It's so jam! I rather stay late and avoid the jam.

Well, I missed Eaglepoint office a lot. Can't wait to go back on Saturday. Sharon said I mustn't look back... but continue to move forward. Not having them around, felt something is missing. Part of me is missing. I wanted to go back so badly.

Will see how my 2nd day would be like in the office. Oh oh oh... I am collecting my car tomorrow morning!!! awesome right! Driving a car without AC is a torture!

Look forward for the days to come.
Look forward to Friday. Gathering of the Creative Life and Saturday, office time!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Panasonic Competition

Jeyna is in the semi-final! Wow so proud of her =)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

sigh...

Can I cry? I really can't hold it any longer. Wasn't a great day today. Was feeling uneasy the whole day. Was hopping my best friend will be well. I was really concerned about her, yet I can't do anything.

Hearing YB Hannah Yeoh, inspires me... yet at the same time, her sharing challenged me to rise up and believe for a change in this nation. I was tearing when she shared. It encourages me to hear her testimony, seeing people standing up and take the challenge.

 But... I am still troubled.

I hope tomorrow will be better.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Papa, look!

Got this story from a friend. 
Reminder: Don't jump into conclusion too fast, assuming that we know it all. 
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One old man was sitting with his 25 years old son in the train. Train is about to leave the station. All the passengers are settling down into their seats. As the train started the young man was filled with alot of joy and curiosity. He was sitting on the window side. He went out one hand and feeling the passing air. He shouted, "Papa see all the trees are going behind". Old man smile and admired his son's feelings. Beside the young man one couple was sitting and listing all the conversation between father and son. They were little awkward with the attitude of the 25 years old man behaving like a small child.

Suddenly the young man again shouted, "Papa see the pond and animals. Clouds are moving with the train". Couple was watching the young man in embarrassingly. Now its start raining and some of water drops touches the young man's hand. He is filled with joy and he closed his eyes. He shouted again," Papa it's raining, water is touching me, see papa". Couple couldn't help themselves and ask the old man. Why don't you visit the Doctor and  get your son treated. Old man said," *Yes, We were from the hospital. Today my son got his eyes for the first time in his life".

*Moral of the story is;
We must not come to any conclusion until we know all the facts
learn from the past, live in the present and work for the future.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Robin Hood?

Watched Robin Hood. (and i kinda fell asleep for 5mins i think, it's midnight show... and after long day at work, my eyes just give up on me)
Corrupted king! Hate it. Super selfish king... geramnya...

Robin Hood... someone that will fight for unity. The king on the other hand, only think for his own benefit. Robin Hood reminds me of Eph 4:3 make every effort to keep the unity...

Unity does not just happen. It takes effort to keep the unity. And I think unity pleases God...

is it real?

Dream of my uncle... the conversation felt so real. In the dream, he told me that his time is up... but mine, it's not. I am about to start a new chapter... he asked me to be strong.

Some how, part of me still feel he is around. 

Sunday, May 16, 2010

servant

It's Sunday morning. Usually I will wake up early and get ready to go to church. My Sunday are full with laughter, people, and going around.

It's been a routine for me over the pass few years. I served at Church every Sunday. There are time I am tired of the demand of people, but most of the time, I enjoyed myself. Seeing the church grow, brings joy to my heart.

Have you ever wonder, why a Sunday church gathering it's call service? Hmmm actually I don't know the answer, but I personally, it's call a service because church gathering is cater to serve the people? Is like people serve people kinda industry. Growing in up in church taught me to live a "servant" life, not think highly about myself. Serving has taught me to be humble, and put other first.

Start serving today, and you will experience joy beyond your understanding. It's fulfilling... it nourishes your soul. It's when you try to have everything to yourself; you lose your soul. That's why it is written, blessed are those who give =)

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Superwoman

I regards her as superwoman! Wonder who? My mom!

She gave up everything for her family. Dad passed away 26 years ago... August 1984, and she never re-married. She gave her all to raise us up... my 2 elder brothers and myself.

My relationship with my mom is not "ever green" kinda relationship. When I was a teenager, i hated her... literally. I think during that time she must be super hurt. Being rejected by her own daughter. No one will understand how my mom feels. It took me good 6 years to mend the relationship.

Being the only daughter, I have a very bad temper. (Usually people say being the youngest, we are very unique =p)  Yell at her all the time, as though she owe me the whole world. Why I hate her, how I learn to love her again and decided to mend the relationship... it's another story by itself. Perhaps someday I will share =)

Mom is my hero. She stands strong. She did not give up on me, and still loves me even though I rejected her during my teenage years.

Looking back, I am glad that I choose to forgive her, and accept her. I do not know how tough it is to raise 3 children without her husband. Even till today, she still goes back to my grandparents house. She treat both my grandfather and grandmother as her own parents. She relate well with all my auntie and uncles.

Mom is a giver. There are times I was upset with her when she gave away food that I buy for her to my cousin. She will say, your cousin like to eat. She gives the best to others. She thinks what is best for others.

My mom, she is a fast worker... and I wonder, why am I not a fast worker heheehe...

My mom... she is just awesome! Love her lotzzz

I treasure her a lot.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Dash! & Lash!

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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Sunday, May 09, 2010

random

It's mother's day... it's also my grandma 1st death anniversary. I miss her a loooooooooooooot! 
And I still misses uncle chai seng, he's gone for 2 weeks now.

Friday, May 07, 2010

She...

She is one thoughtful person that God has blessed me with.

She introduce me to Korean Food, Japanese Food.... etc...

We do crazy things together e.g: try to catch Wang Lee Hom during his last concert in Malaysia. That's the most memorable moment. and the funny thing is, when we walk to the back stage... NO ONE stop us. hahahha

Happenings in April.... 


My uncle passed away from heart attack, I can't stop crying.... and she said, "lets go for lunch!" i agreed...
then, in the evening... she said, "wanna have dinner with me?"

So on the same day, we have lunch and dinner together.
Not that she has nothing to eat home, she did that just to distract me... at least helps me not to cry that much. Isn't she thoughtful?

hahaha this come about rather random... both of us wanted to watch musical... me being me, I don't usually suggest stuff...
Received her SMS on one Sunday afternoon, and she said.. "let's watch musical!" and I was oh right, lets go... on Tuesday, after work we drove down to Actors' studio and watch MM-ah... a local production... and it's funny. We had a good laugh...

stopped by sg besi road and had wan tan mee for dinner. Best wan tan mee in town... me like-y =p


Guess what's next after mamak mee-ah...? We decided to got for orchestra! hahahah it was on the last day of Victory Weekend. I got to rush down from Tanah Tinggi, pick sharon and then to KLCC. Although I already try my very best not to be late, but we still couldn't make it on time =(


So instead of enjoying ourselves in the hall, we got to watch from this tiny little screen for 15 mins... what an experience. It's very malu-fying to be late okay....

That was the night that we were craving for siew kai yik... Drove around KL just for siew kai yik =p
Whenever we go, we can't find any siew kai yik! Doink betul...

But finally we had siew kai yik last night at Ikea hahaha....


April... quite an eventful month for both of us... pretty emotional.
She is my Ka Che, our journey is really a unique one. Love you lotz Ka Che =)
She may not be the perfect Ka Che, but she is my Ka Che ^^