choices

Found this at my ka che's desk. She used to remind me all the time that "LIFE IS A SUM OF ALL YOUR CHOICES."
I have a choice to make a different each day.

I was just about to quit. Was very tempted to utter the word - "I QUIT".
Thank God i didn't. I decided to persevere, not easy... but I think I made the right decision.

still waiting

Waiting period... it's hard. Wanted to know or rather see that fruit of our hard work soonest possible, but unfortunately, won't be able to see the fruit for now.

I do wonder, if what I am doing it's fruitful. I see the vision... but how to get there. Is my effort, what I am sowing right now will bear fruit?

WAIT

I definitely need to learn to wait upon the Lord.

Isaiah 40:31 (New Living Translation)

 ³¹ But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.
      They will soar high on wings like eagles.
   They will run and not grow weary.
      They will walk and not faint.

Park Yong Ha's Suicide

I was sadden by the news. Nope, I am not one of his fan… I was sad because another talented young man decided to take his own life.
There are many things that none of us can explain why he choose to end his life. The media can try to piece things together and come out with an conclusion of why he commit suicide. He was a talented actor, respected by many… probably loved by many. Suicide may not seems like an option to him… but he actually did commit suicide.



What drove Park Yong Ha’s suicide? (taken from allkpop.com)

Although several hours have passed since Park Yong Ha’s death, questions still remained unsolved: what drove Park Yong Ha to commit suicide?
Many acquaintances of the actor have all claimed that they do not know the reason of Park Yong Ha’s death, as he’s been acting like normal for the past few days. But it isn’t what it seems beneath the surface.
After further investigations, it’s been revealed that Park Yong Ha has had difficult times because of his ill father. His father has been suffering stomach cancer for a long period of time, and was told recently that it was in a terminal stage. A friend of Park Yong Ha claims, “After learning that his father had cancer, Yong Ha brought his father home and cared for him. He always worried about his father. He also said that he will be focusing on caring for his father for a while.”
Park Yong Ha’s failure in business also seems to be another reason for his suicide. Right before appearing on On Air (drama), he became independent from his ex-agency, and established his own company, with his father as the company’s president. According to a family acquaintance, running the business was not an easy task for them. A manager in the company made a financial mistake after getting various loans, causing the agency a huge loss. To make matters worse, Park Yong Ha’s father was left with a huge debt after mistakenly co-signing someone else’s loan. To contribute to the financial difficulty of the family, Park Yong Ha had even recently consulted a used car dealer to sell his car.
Park Yong Ha was also revealed to have been suffering from insomnia for 14 years, because of depression. He confessed on his Twitter a while back that he had been relying on sleeping pills for a long time, making his fans worry about his health. The actor also shared on a program that his rising fame as a Hallyu star caused him to undergo depression from a sense of shame.
Spokepersons from the hospital and police station have confirmed that no suicide note was left behind. The police have registered it as being an unnatural death and that a variety of reasons (listed above) probably led Park Yong Ha to choose suicide. Upon his family request, no autopsy will be performed and a traditional Buddhist funeral will be held for Park Yong Ha on July 2nd at 8am.

What I learn from this??
1. Talk to someone when you are down, or feeling trapped.
2. Suicide not an option. It really hurt those who love you, by you dying… may make their life miserable.
3. In times of difficulties, there will be light at the end of tunnel… there’s hope in Jesus, allow people to walk with you.

1 month

I have officially served Expo Digital for a month now.
It's a pretty interesting one month, trying to learn as much as I can. Not having Pr Steven or Sharon around to correct me or "counsel" me, is something that I am not use to it. Was feeling a little "homesick". Miss the people back in Eaglepoint office.

I have learned:
- not to look back, and look forward... (Sharon kept reminding me to look fwd... thanks Jie)
- people come in different package, just accept them as who they are also makes my life easier... kekeke
- there are many ways in doing things. got to change when necessary, don't wanna change? we sure going to lose out.
- sometimes it's also useful to use simpler and smaller machines =p
- most of the file that send to us, we need to check... and to control the quality, it's good to print out a sample copy, check through before printing the actual copies.
- PDF is ideal format for printers. (at least that's what I was told)
- Vision and purpose will drives someone. It's important to have vision and purpose. 

I realized... 
- it really annoys me when I need to go in circles just to get a parking. At times I will be super frustrated, and just double park... although is something i hate to do, but during those time... double park seems like a good option.
- Jam starts as early as 7am during school time. Best to leave the house? 9am. Unfortunately I start work at 9am. So it's better to just leave home around 8am.
- Driving in KL is a pain! one wrong turn, you are screwed!
- I am ok with dog, but not having them in the office =_=" the pee and poo, doesn't make the office smells better.
- I have a brain! I can actually think. hehehe
- I am pretty good at laughing at myself... actually I am pretty blur and silly. I need to be smarter... 

I almost forgotten how much I love being with students. Facilitating in NA workshop in Taman Sea was the best. Although I don't think I shared well... not too sure if the msg got across to the students, but then... it was the best thing that happened so far.