5th month

My 5th month... Definitely not a smooth sailing. But I thank God for the grace and favor. It's a whole lots of experience I gain here.

Talk about being patient and calmness during tough time. My boss have that.... even when tsunami hits, he is still calm and help me process things through. Me on the other hand, really a panic queen. Need to learn to stay calm and solve the problem, just like the saying, no point crying over spilled milk.

So much to learn! Really stretching my character and also knowledge. Well this is what I asked for... wisdom. Here, you go... gaining wisdom from all the challenges and learning from wiser people.

Yes, conclusion... I am stress, but I am also keeping myself open, to learn and grow.

#remindertoself

I thank God for challenges, for it stretches me
I thank God for the discipline, for I know He loves me
I thank God that I am weak, for I know He is strong
I thank God for the unknown, for I know I can trust Him for my future
I thank God for the rough ride, for I know I can lean on Him
I thank God for my imperfection, for I know in Him I am made perfect
I thank God for "difficult people", for I know He teach me to love those whom I think it's unlovable.
I thank God for the rude wake up call, for I know He is walking through it with me
I thank God for friends, for I know He do not want me to be alone

Challenges are real, my feelings are real... but because of His grace, I am able to rise above all challenges. For when I am weak, HE is strong.

Rock Award!

It's ROCK Award night!!!! super happening, and our host Mr Cruz, just had fun making a fool of himself on the stage. oh my, and that's just Cuz =)

All the award winner, deserves it. They are indeed very outstanding.

Cluttured mind

Getting more and more busy with work. There are things I need to slowly let go. Keeping first thing first. FOCUS is the key.

It's just merely 4 months in the new company, and work is really getting hectic now. From nothing to do, to having not enough time and needing to get new hire. It's amazing. Really amazing! Can you imagine, me doing customer service? Still super nervous whenever I needed to see a client. I am force to make decisions. I have no choice but to stay calm when I am seeing client. In the business world, every mistake make cause money. But thank God for gracious boss. He sort of allow me to make mistakes. Love the fact that I am given the room to explore and experiment new things.

Still wondering what my future would be. I am entering late 20s and still feel that I have not achieve anything. Am I missing something here? Not too sure how long will I stay in this current company. Not too sure if I will even last till next year. I don't know. Future? I really can't see my future. I do feel as though I have no future. Wanting to stepped out, but how? HOW? HOW? HOW?

Is patient the KEY now?

Yeah I know, I am kind of not making sense. Me and my cluttered mind. Now, I need clarity.

Standing at the door

I am standing at the door.
Just watching every moves. Wishing that I could be part of it. Unfortunately I am just at the door.

Tried entering, but somehow I just couldn't find my fit.